March

  • The reigning issue of this month hasn’t been the war in Ukraine – though that’s had me upset for multiple reasons – or work or writing. It’s been sleep. One night I started waking up at 4-5am and that kept happening. Didn’t matter what time I went to bed, what I did beforehand, whether I drank alcohol or not, too much blue light or none, I would keep waking up at that time. Sometimes I went back to sleep, sometimes I didn’t. My connection with reality and myself has felt horribly tenuous at times. Then I manage catch up a little, and feel semihuman again, and remember that I have goals and hobbies and things I like doing. Maybe I’ll even do a thing. But the lack of sleep gets me again. This has wrecked me. I have no idea how people with insomnia or small children handle this. Much kudos to you, because this fucking sucks and I suspect this is easy mode sleep deprivation, if there is such a thing.
  • Entanglement: I kept forgetting to plug it on social media this month, thanks to the zombie mode inflicted by lack of sleep, but eventually did something. I’m putting extra snippets on Facebook and Twitter. Looking forward to it being out.
  • Watching: rewatched Only Yesterday, which is one of my favourite movies of all time. I also watched The Two Popes and highly recommend it! Wonderful film.
  • Reading: I finished Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. The version I have is quite slim, but it took me a good four weeks to plow through it, even with basic reflection. It’s one to keep and come back to, because there’s a lot to digest in it. I’m now rereading Persuasion by Jane Austen.
  • Music: Florence + the Machine dropped King, and I can’t stop listening to it. The video is wonderfully witchy and dark, and I adore the lyrics. I’m really excited for the rest of the album. I also revisited Solar Power by Lorde, and there are new songs! Secrets of a Girl (Who’s Seen it All) is fab, and there are Māori versions of some of the songs! Such an underrated album.